Winter is officially on it's way. I can feel it. There is a deep chill in the air, and the wind is tossing the brittle leaves around. My bones are aching, and I am reminded that I have been through many seasons in my life. Looking back I have learned so many things. As I look back at each season of my life I remember how much I loved it and how much I didn't want to let it go. And so it makes me wonder what I will think of this stage in my life years from now when this season has come and gone. I wonder what I will think when I have much more wisdom than I do now. I hope I can look back and have no regrets. I hope I will have lived each day feeling and doing and dreaming all of the things that my heart wishes to experience. So far I think I'm on the right track. I think I'm at least headed in the right direction, and so for now I will continue moving forward in this season. I will continue appreciating each moment of every day because every day brings something wonderful. Yesterday it was spending time with Seej sharing something that we both love. The day before it was an extra large hug from Doop when he met me in the garage after I arrived home from work, and before that it was waking Lou up for school and listening to her contagious little giggle. These things help me to know that this is an excellent season of my life. The homework and toys left on the counter, the constant clutter in my car, and the little socks in every corner of the entire house are part of this season. Although I sometimes grow weary of trying to keep up with it all, I truly do love this time of my life. Whether I like it or not this season will change just as the wind and the cold are stripping the trees outside. All I can do is hope that the next season will be as rewarding as this one.
On a side note, happy birthday to my girl Seej. Thank you for helping me start this season of my life and for being so patient with me as I learned to become a mother. You were definitely on my list of dreams I was dreaming of, and you have made becoming a mother a worthwhile and extremely rich experience. My seasons with you are just getting better and better, and I look forward to spending as much time as I can with you before the winds and the cold come and change this season of our lives. You are more than I ever could have asked for, and I love every piece of who you are.
With love always in this season and the next,
Your always and forever Mother