I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about someday. Sometimes someday becomes the theme of our life. Someday I will take that vacation that I have always dreamed of, and someday I will grab hold of my dreams and make them reality, and someday I will get on top of things in my life and it won't be so crazy. That someday seems pretty far off, and then I have moments like this one. I have a morning where I'm busily getting lunches prepared for the day and racing the clock on the wall to get everyone ready and out the door so that I still have enough time to race to work and punch the clock before the set start time. I am so rushed that I easily forget what was supposed to come next on the really-long-list-of-things-to-do-in-very-little-time, and I happen to glance over at the table and see this. In an instant I stop what I am doing and take the seat opposite him and my mind wanders off to someday again.
Someday that toy truck will be gone. He will have outgrown it, and once it collects enough dust it will be cleaned off and given away to someone else who will enjoy it. Someday his favorite cup will be gone, and so will that piece of ratty blanket that he carries with him everywhere. They will be remnants of a time in his life that for me passed by all too quickly. Someday he will fill up that seemingly big chair. He will be strong and big. He will talk about girls and hang out with friends, and his days will move at a pace much faster than this. When those somedays come I will love him as much as I do on this day. I will continue to marvel as I watch him grow and reach the somedays that he dreams of. I will be grateful for the opportunity to experience all of his somedays with him because I know that not all parents are afforded that opportunity, and I will remember that on days when the thought of someday makes me a little bit sad. I realize that when each someday comes that I had thought about long ago that someday really is beautiful. It is a blessing, and I know that he knows how much I love him, but he'll understand it even more someday.