Saturday, July 20, 2013

Pushing

Summer is passing by so quickly.  It seems like we have been busier than usual lately.  We haven't had much time to make many memories together, or maybe it's just that I'm missing those moments when they do happen.  Between the pace of summer so far and the grief that I'm still carrying I feel like I'm in a bit of a daze most of the time.  I can't seem to get my thoughts in order, and I can't seem to stay focused.  The days come and go and I have many lists in my mind of things that need to be accomplished and things that I really want to do, but I feel like I move in circles instead of making progress.  I think I'm still trying to find my sea legs.  In the midst of what feels like confusion I do continue to find lots of moments to be grateful for.  It's the little things that I love the very most.  It's the simplest of days when I get to just slow down and be a mom that still bring me the most joy, and it's days like this one when we got to go to the "beach" that re-fill my bucket and remind me of all the things that I have to feel gratitude for.  Every little bit of this trip that I took with my family and some good friends included all of the simple things that I love the very most.  The wind in my hair, sand on my toes, seagulls squawking, and the water lapping at the sand.  Throw in the laughter shared between good friends and conversation with new ones, and you have many minutes that have passed that could not have been better spent.  Since my dad passed away in April I have been pushing.  Pushing to move on.  Pushing to get back to "normal".  I'm starting to realize that I just need to slow down and let things be.  I want to be able to fully experience days like this one more often, and that means a whole lot less pushing.

For more water images head over to Sharon Covert's blog.  

6 comments:

Lesa said...[Reply to comment]

Beautiful photos! Yes, the best thing is to take things at your own pace. Everyone grieves differently and that is okay. Grief comes in waves. Anyway, it did for me when my Mom passed away.

Have a good weekend!

Life with Kaishon said...[Reply to comment]

It looks like you had a very nice day out with your favorite kiddos! I just want you to know that I pray for you every day. Your loss of your Daddy has made my heart break for you. I know God is holding you and your family close to Him as you grieve.

Sending all the love I can muster. Becky

gossphotography said...[Reply to comment]

beautiful, I missed reading your posts Marvett. I can only imagine what you must be going, but you have a wonderful, beautiful family that I know must bring you lots of joy everyday and I hope the days will get easier for all of you !! <hugs !!

/SBA said...[Reply to comment]

soft, beautiful imagery.

my heart goes out to you. i recently lost my father as well, and that is a grief that no one can know until they have the unfortunate moment of having to. hold on, love. it gets...easier. every day, every moment, keep snapping, keep sharing, keep shedding...until his memory is alive again, and fills you with nothing but happiness.

"the pain passes, but the beauty remains" (renoir)

Buckeroomama said...[Reply to comment]

I especially LOVE your second image, Marvett.

Praying that things feel 'lighter' and a bit easier as the days go by. {hugs}

Katherine Vargas said...[Reply to comment]

Welcome back Marvett! its so nice to have you back.all photos are lovely.

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